Hide me away

I'm really shy. A girl didn't believe me, but i really am.

Parties, shows, outings, etc unless i have some one to talk to.
i wont say a word. Just thought I'd set it straight.


Got inspired on the net to get off my ass and go out. Ended up in me running really fast, jumping a barb-wire fence and then trying to hide from a bored seco looking for fun which he had just found. It was a massive game of hide and seek or cat and mouse. I made my way through ally ways, a number of shops, roofs and etc to get back to were i started. I made it bad with cuts and lose of my breath.

Christmas is close. Just another day, just another day were people throw money at shops to make some one happy. Just another day to mark were a ghost died for no one.
Christmas is meant to be happy, joyful and all that sappy shit. When i lived in Melbourne i knew a kid. A good friend of mine, but his family wasn't as wealthy as our family (we aren't wealthy but you know what i mean). His farther wasn't the type to keep his cool as well, but his mum was the best and at first glance they were a happy family. As i got to know him more and more through the years i knew him things became clear that his parents frought alot and had a great impact on his life and normal occasions made it worse like birthdays, Easter and the one and only Christmas. When these happened things used to go shit for him and made me feel like shit not being able to help. One day when he stayed over he reassured me that he was ok and he was used to the fighting and shit like that. One year i went over to his house, being Christmas eve and me leaving for Queensland 3 days later me and my mum thought it would be a good idea to see him for the last time so i did. Being a kid you notice small things like no gaming consoles or lack of presents under the tree.

His dad was out but his mum was home but i didn't see her all day. He told me that his dad and mum had a mass fight and his dad didn't come home come home from the bar the night before. Christmas came and left with the day. A couple more days passed and before i knew it i was in Queensland. Living a new life and already forgetting the stuff I had left behind, on the 4th day mum receive a e-mail saying that my friend was dead and his dad too and his mum was in intensive care. Mum told me everything that happened and we planed to go down but on the day my grand father and also passed, making me and mum total wrecks. When i had a read of the police report on my best friends death it read that at 4:47 his body along with his fathers body was found 2 k's off the train tracks near our local train station. His dad had picked him up from school which was the first thing that went wrong because me and him always walked home no matter what and being that we only lived 2 minutes from school. His dad told him that he was going Christmas shopping even though it was 2 days after Christmas. He drove to the train station and got on a train heading for inner city and airport. And upon leaving he used the emergency door release to open the door then holding my friend jumped and aimed for the over-head power source pole and both bodies hit it straight on killing his farther straight away and broken my friends left leg, 5 ribs and a shit load more but this lead to him laying their waiting for death. The report said he would have been there for at least 20 Min's before chocking on his on blood. Before this he had gone home and beat up his wife and demanding her to say sorry for some thing she had not clue over.

She made a full recovery and attended both of there funerals, then attend our grand fathers as she and her son where family friends.

When you go to bed on Christmas eve, look at how dark it is. Look at your shadow as you walk to bed. Its dark. Not every ones day is as good as yours. Their are people out there that are less fortunate then you out there. Take a moment to see that and decide weather its right to say your having a bad day just because your at your grand parents house or some thing stupid. At least you wake up to a family that do buy you nice things. Their is always darkness falling over some one, just be glad its not you.

I have things to do.
Goodnight
xxx