Why

Why can't I be some where near this?



I want to see this band so bad it hurts.
After I seen them, their is no reason to live.





"I'm living in this world without you watching my own life pass me by.
I'm living in this world without you being a bystander to my own life.
I'm on the outside trying to look in.

I need to feel connected or else I'm going to lose it.
I'm waiting for my destiny to manifest in front of me.
The one thing I was sure of,
the one thing I knew,
the only thing I thought I had I fucking blew.

The one thing I was sure of,
the one thing I knew,
the only thing I thought I had I fucking blew.

I'm showering at two in the morning so no once can seem clean the filth I have come to be.
How can I focus on tomorrow when I carn't live today.

I wanted hope, I wanted change. The stars have fallen from the sky. I wanted hope, I wanted change, but now I'm ready to die.
You can't kill someone who's already dead. You can't even begin to understand the thoughts in my head.
I beat my self over and over again about nothing, just sensing reality is dead.
I hate myself more than you ever can. And I'll hate myself until the very end.

I lost my heart the day the world went cold. The sun doesn't rise to heat this godforsaken earth.
An image of you appeared as I began to cry.
An image of you appeared as I slowly died.
Cynical of this world, pessimistic on a whole.
Cynical of this world, pessimistic on a whole, living in the biggest lie, calling purgatory my only home."



"The sky is dead,
the sun has set.
I close my eyes and try to forget.

This day that time has overtaken,
this day that hope has forsaken.
I'm waiting for the world to burn me down.

Time has changed me and soon time will erase me.
I've realized that I've done so much wrong.
I've got no place to call my home.
Now that change to live has come and gone.
People screaming all along the streets,
knowing that their world lays in defeat.

Lies in defeat.

Time has changed me and soon time will erase me.
I've realized that I've done so much wrong.
I've got no place to call my home.

Farewell to who I am,
farewell to who I used to be.

Promises of better days have come and gone.
Farewell to the man you see.
I pray that there's no eternity for me.

Forgive me destiny,
this world has fucking destroyed me.
Forgive me destiny,
this world has fucking destroyed me.
Forgive me destiny, this world has ruined the plans you have for me.
Life has polluted me.
Forgive me, forgive me."



xxx